I can’t believe in two weeks I will be coming up on my 2 year publiversary. Wow. It’s so insane to me how fast time has flown by, but I can’t complain. I’ve had tons of fun and met so many wonderful people in the past two years and even gained a few gray hairs, but it’s all been worth it. Many of you I am honored to call my friend. It really does mean a lot.
It will be 2016 tomorrow and it’s that time to reflect on what I’ve accomplished and didn’t and what I want to accomplish in the future. There are so many goals that I still have to tackle and honestly I don’t know if there will ever be a time that I don’t have goals.
In 2015, I learned a lot about myself. I work well under pressure and that I can do almost anything that I put my mind too. In the next year, I need to try to stay more organized and create a schedule without deviating from the plan (within reason). As most of you know, I work a full-time job and I was able to publish 1 novel and 3 novellas last year, which is a huge accomplishment. I am proud of what I’ve done.
Toward the end of the year, I experienced this terrible burnout/depression and had to step away. I can’t say what started it all, but I know that sometimes it’s helpful to take a step back and reassess and recommit. I had to remember the whole reason why I started writing, my WHY. So I took a small break. Most of you probably didn’t notice because I still updated and things but I didn’t write for almost 2 months. From October – December I couldn’t get any words out. They just wouldn’t come and I refused to force them, so I watched a lot of TV, took naps, and even became addicted to leggings. LOL. It’s the fad and hello, they are soft.
I just wasn’t happy with myself or where I was and got lost in a miserable cycle of constantly beating myself up, which did no good. So, I joined a gym (again) and hired a dietician, took a step back and realized that life isn’t that bad. I finally feel like myself again. It’s so easy to be hard on yourself in this industry and I was. The most terrible 1 star review couldn’t even compare to how I was treating myself. I was my own worst enemy and unfortunately for me, my misery DOES NOT like company. I want to be alone, in a shell, and stay there until I’m ready to come out. Sometimes I feel like I’m not good enough or like things aren’t moving fast enough and I get frustrated and down in the dumps. This isn’t written for you to feel sorry for me but to give you the reality of how I sometimes feel and that I’m human. It might be a vicious cycle that some authors go through or maybe it’s just me.
In 2016, I really want to stay focused and keep my head down and write. I am creating daily and weekly word count goals and putting the words above anything else. Next year I want to really focus on myself and what I’m doing and what I can do to improve as a human being, wife, author, and friend. I know that my dreams will come true eventually because I truly believe they will. I’m working as hard as I can so it’s bound to happen. It’s just a matter of time and I have to keep reminding myself of that.
My life goal is to make my writing career a full-time job.
I want to be able to bring you stories from my heart every few months without interruptions. I want to move mountains with my words. I want to make people fall in love with the pages. I’ve always wanted those things and I don’t think that will ever change. Usually for my yearly goals, I give a number of books I want to publish. This year, I’m not going to do it. I’m going to let the words flow and publish the best stories I possibly can. If it’s two books or ten, I know my heart will be in them.
But do not fret, I’ve got lots of things in the works. It’s just figuring out what to write.
Too many stories, not enough time. #truth.
Of course Ace is coming on 2.22.15 but I’m not sure what else will be after that. I hope everyone loves the Band of Brothers. After Ace I haven’t decided what’s next and to me that’s the most exciting part of this all. There is nothing more inspiring than a blank word document that’s waiting for me to write words. It could be Nik it could be something else. I have no idea and I’m not giving empty promises but I can say that on my literary back burner sits a hilarious contemporary romance trilogy, a biker trilogy, a two-book romance series, Luke’s Story, and of course all the Band of Brothers and maybe another character from the series. That’s 13 books that I’m waiting to write and the ideas keep coming. I’ve also considered writing a dark romance but I haven’t committed to whether I will publish it under Lyra or choose a completely different name. It’s really dark, not something that I feel would mesh with my other titles. But I guess that’s TBA. I’ve also been toying with the idea of writing a young adult novel as well, but I’m wondering if that would be something better suited for Wattpad as a fun project or something that I throw on the site. That’s an idea.
But anyway, enough of my rambling.
I just wanted to THANK YOU all for being a part of my life.
You make it all worth it, every single word.
You make my heart happy!
I’m ready for the new year because #newyearnewbooks
Have a safe and Happy New Year! Wishing you tons of love and laughter in 2016. 🙂